I thought moving to South Carolina would be a place filled with adventure, not a place filled with pain and dealing with it. I know God directed me down here for a reason and that is to grow in the midst of all the crap that I have gone through and recognize what are healthy relationships.
I have been believing what are healthy relationships for me are not healthy by any means. It has been almost six months since I haven't spoken a word to my dad. That in it itself has been...very painful. The situation with my dad made me recognize what other relationships were not healthy which I can think of another. A person that I was very physical with in the past. We started dating early of last summer and things were good, until two weeks later he said that we should be just friends...after all of a sudden the phone calls and texts stopped. Awesome! Well we still hung out but we were still physical...and then had these ups and downs that he couldn't promise me a full relationship because he had a son on the way...so I thought I would support him by giving him the encouragement he needs...so things started to go right for once and the desire to hang out and try to see each other was there...up until the beginning of the next summer...the story of our relationship was that he would never really tell me anything so I just assumed and asked a lot of questions which kind of made him upset...so i thought the last question i asked did for him...which made me upset...then i moved on and found an amazing person and are actually in a healthy relationship! which i have to say is very strange for me because of my past...
well a few months ago this guy that decided not to be friends anymore...i ended up texting because i just wanted to wish him the best of luck with everything and have closure since the ending of our relationship wasn't the greatest of ending it...some bad things were said...well sure enough he texts me back and says that he was going to actually get a hold of me...well sure enough he explains his situation and tells me that he made the biggest mistake by letting me go and should of known better...after texting and calling each other...we have been actually for once started to really to get to know each other...he says that he wishes i was back home...but a couple of days later...i find out that he has a girlfriend...which makes me upset and the ultimate question is why should i care? really why should i care? i'm with someone that treats me so well, listens to me, and knows what i enjoy and dislike...i never got that with the guy with the ugly past...
so why do i care???
